That… pretty much sums up how I’m feeling right now.
Around me everyone is kinda somber, some people are openly crying, and I… just simply stand there. I mean, I do feel some loss, yeah, but… it’s more the loss of somebody who’s moved away and won’t come back. Nothing as extreme as what everyone else seems to be going through.
So… hmm. Yeah.
I know that feeling, although my situation was much more soft. When my cat died a few years ago it was really sad … but at the same time not at all as I imagined it to be … as TV made it always seem to be.
Sure, I was sad but I wasn’t crying. Life went on, even a few hours after. I did my usual stuff on my PC.
When we buried her I even thought to myself things like “that’s not like I imagined it to be” or “Is this all I feel?”
In the end I decided it was good the was it was. Feeling pain and loss isn’t too nice after all. I was just fast with processing what happened … and with going on.